Post by Trista on Oct 31, 2006 0:58:37 GMT -5
This is very painful for me to say but on Monday, Oct. 30 I lost my little Anika. I still can’t believe it, I feel so lost without him! My poor baby boy is gone 
Everything happened so fast. He has been perfectly fine and vet checked not long ago (a few weeks) and got perfect bill of health. He was acting, eating and defecating as normally… All day Sunday he was perfect as usual, ate most of his food, had a nice healthy green color and everything. Woke up Monday morning and he was acting very unusual and he couldn’t move his whole left side. I gave him a warm bath while waiting for the vet to call; he couldn’t hold his head up so I had to make him a little pillow to rest it on. Then a little bit later he was able to lift himself up a bit with his right-front leg, he looked very alert… But he collapsed a few seconds later. He was breathing very slowly and turning yellow. On the way to the vets he went completely limp again and it looked like his left eye rolled back and it looked bloodshot. We got to the vet and she was going over him, feeling around, listening to his heartbeat…ect.. She told me that his heartbeat was very slow and weak and you could see his breathing was becoming even more slow and shallow. She thought the best thing to do would be to put him down asap because he was obviously suffering. I was afraid she would say that but went ahead with it. Now I feel so horrible, I let my baby down. Right before he went, I gave him a kiss and told him that I was sorry and he opened his right eye just a tiny bit and looked at me as if he was telling me it’s ok…. All I keep thinking is that I did this to him and maybe I didn’t make the right choice by having him put down, maybe it was something that could have been treated….maybe I did something wrong. His diet was always varied, got lots of soaks in the tub, humidity and heat were at the recommended levels, had his mega-ray light set up at the recommended distance, on 12 hours off 12 hours, got regular vet visits and was very much loved. I can’t figure out what it was that I did so wrong that it cost my baby his life.
I can't even put into words how horrible I feel
Everything happened so fast. He has been perfectly fine and vet checked not long ago (a few weeks) and got perfect bill of health. He was acting, eating and defecating as normally… All day Sunday he was perfect as usual, ate most of his food, had a nice healthy green color and everything. Woke up Monday morning and he was acting very unusual and he couldn’t move his whole left side. I gave him a warm bath while waiting for the vet to call; he couldn’t hold his head up so I had to make him a little pillow to rest it on. Then a little bit later he was able to lift himself up a bit with his right-front leg, he looked very alert… But he collapsed a few seconds later. He was breathing very slowly and turning yellow. On the way to the vets he went completely limp again and it looked like his left eye rolled back and it looked bloodshot. We got to the vet and she was going over him, feeling around, listening to his heartbeat…ect.. She told me that his heartbeat was very slow and weak and you could see his breathing was becoming even more slow and shallow. She thought the best thing to do would be to put him down asap because he was obviously suffering. I was afraid she would say that but went ahead with it. Now I feel so horrible, I let my baby down. Right before he went, I gave him a kiss and told him that I was sorry and he opened his right eye just a tiny bit and looked at me as if he was telling me it’s ok…. All I keep thinking is that I did this to him and maybe I didn’t make the right choice by having him put down, maybe it was something that could have been treated….maybe I did something wrong. His diet was always varied, got lots of soaks in the tub, humidity and heat were at the recommended levels, had his mega-ray light set up at the recommended distance, on 12 hours off 12 hours, got regular vet visits and was very much loved. I can’t figure out what it was that I did so wrong that it cost my baby his life. I can't even put into words how horrible I feel
