Having a hard time these days.....

[ChamZilla]

Hi Everyone,

I'm sure you are all well aware with the situation with my mom (in hospital dying of cancer) well to add to the stress my bf of 5.5 years said he needs some time apart to sort out his head. It has nothing to do with me, another woman or anything like that. He just needs time for himself he said. Well its been 1 night away and 1 night I spent with him so far at his dads and its tearing my heart up. I can't believe how much I miss him, when he was around all the time I never even noticed. But now that I don't know when I'll see him next I do miss him. It feels like I'm slowly going crazy, and the world is only full of bad things. Even though I'm Canadian our heath system also sucks bum if I need a counceller I have to pay 80$ per hour. So that is out of the question, hence why I'm talking to all of you great people!

Other than that everyone here is doing well. I haven't told my family yet about Andrew's decision to have some time to himself. I probably should, but they all have there own family's to worry about.

Thanks for listening,

Steph

[DaremoAlpha]

You want a fellow Canadian to lean on...email me your phone number , I have cable phone so there is no long distance charges and therefore you can unload as much as you need.
I know I am not the best known of the group but I am here for people when I can be.

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[desiree]

Sorry to hear about your mother's health and your b/f issues.

Given no inkling of your relationship or individual situation, I can only offer to try to look at this postively; that will help you get thru this. Take the time to take care of yourself, if you aren't already doing so. Dote on your lizards; that always helped me whenever I was feeling icky:) Tho easily spoken, try not to spend the time just sitting and thinking; there are some things (esp, people) that are just beyond our control, and expending the energies on those thoughts will drain you.

A paragraph can't really summarize my thots, so feel free to email at [e-mail]. Stick the word "iguana" in the mail somewhere; yahoo thinks everything is spam, and I've a filter to pull out iguana type stuff.

[Marie]

Stephanie you know where you can find me.

[ChamZilla]

Thank you everyone for your support. I've added u guys to my messengers and I probably will email you. Thank you for caring. At least I know I'm not all alone.

[Marie]

No you are not. Let me know if I can do anything.

[ChamZilla]

Hey everyone just an update on this crazy situation. Well my bf's dad talked to him and he said that Andrew (bf) is going to be ok and just needs some time to clear his head. I'm sure things in life have been very hectic for everyone around here. It has now been 10 days since he has been staying at his dads off and on. He is still in love with me, still loves me and still wants to be with me. So I guess that is a plus. I'm just going to have to learn not to hold on so tight for the next little while or I could loose him forever. Which I hope doesn't happen. I'll keep you guys posted Thanks a lot all for the support. It is still going to be hard.

[Denise]

Well Steph I hope things work out for you guy's.
Sometimes we all need some space to sort out everything. He still Loves you and wants to be with you is a good thing...Good Luck and chin up!!!
If I can help,just let me know!!

[ChamZilla]

Hey there everyone, things are going quite a bit better right now. He asked me if it would be ok if he started staying at home everynight on the 4th and I said ok, but some things needed to change. So he's been home ever since then and things have been going a lot better. I really needed to learn not to hold on so tight for my own good. Thank you all for your support, hopefully things keep going well.

Thank you all again, and hugs for everyone!

Stephanie

[DaremoAlpha]

Good going there... glad to hear things are getting better, now kick him out one night a week so you can have "you" time hehehe

[Marie]

That sound's that a great idea.